What are you thinking?

I dared my partner to put on the pair of leather pants he used to wear to the bear bar. And I thought I'd laugh my ass off but then I saw his ass in them and I was reduced to drooling and staring dreamily at how the pants frame everything just right.

 

I think that i should probably be going to bed, but instead, will finish watching "Elementary", since i'm quite curious about what is going to happen.

 

wondering why i'm still awake

dude fuck yeah. fuck yeah

 

While leather pants can accentuate a man's body by it's clingy nature, I actually don't like them on men. They seem too "costumey." Jeans and flannel look better on a guy, especially to a bear bar (not that I've been to even a gay bar :lol.

Honestly, though, I never really got into the whole "leather" look.

 

Why can't I ever sleep early?

 

Maybe rainymood.com (sound of rain and thunder) can calm you down a little? It actually worked for me a few times after drinking too much coffee.

Just guessing (*hug*)

 

That's doesn't help me.....I've watched asmr videos for relaxing and it just doesn't work on me. I need to fix my sleep schedule

 

I'm starting to think my father doesn't have a concept of other people...

 

It's almost ten in the morning and I'm so f**king tired. Why? Why is it always like this? Why can't I get back to that place of relaxation and contentment? Why won't the stress and pressure leave me?

 

I want to sleep with this man: http://i1.mirror.co.uk/incoming/article4656841.ece/alternates/s1227b/Jake-MAIN.jpg

 

Nope, getting up was definitely my first bad decision of the day.

 

What?

/thread - Wondering when this feeling of hopelessness and dread, will go away. Also making mental plans on how to go about reconstructing my heart, and if i should even bother.

On a side note, having eaten so much sweets last night (two boxes of ice cream, about several chocolates, mini cakes, more chocolate, biscuits), equating to about ~7500 calories, i am happy to report, that i haven't actually gotten any fatter. Maybe it's because i didn't eat anything else the whole day. Sweets are fun, how they work on the body.

Also, apparently i have a cold, wonder why...

 

Definitely not planning the revolution, no, not at all.

 

I've worked on my opinion piece and finished reading the pages I need to read in my English book. I only have writing a script for my German assignment tomorrow and studying history left to do now.

I might not be able to sleep tonight as I took my meds kind of late, but whatever.

 

I forgot how much I love Marina & the Diamonds.

 

OK what the hell. Now my mentor's just told me she's changing up my timetable. I was just getting into the routine of my current one, and now I'm going to have to rework everything, meaning I'm now anxious and nervous all over again. :tears: I don't know how to handle this, every little thing seems to be breaking me down at the moment. :tears:

 

(*hug*)

 

No

(*hug*)